What is it about the end of the year that brings about such a feeling of finality? I mean really, its just another day in another year and its going to happen again next year, so its not like I should be surprised or anything. For me, it just felt like this year went by too quickly! My baby is not a baby anymore. He’s now totally potty trained, no diapers, even at night. I caught myself looking at him this morning and I could suddenly see him thirty years in the future. With a life of his own, a wife, children, a job. He looked like my husband, tall and skinny with ultra blonde hair but he has my green-grey eyes (very handsome, if I do say so myself). Let me tell you, it was terrifying! Here we are as parents, and we are given a human being to mold and shape into a good and productive person. And whats worse is that they don’t come with instruction manuals, which is probably a good thing since who really ever reads the instructions anyways?
We each do the best we can, in our own ways and eventually those kids become adults and those adults have to go through the same thing I’m going through right now.
So, I’m at peace. Currently. Its exciting to watch this little boy grow into a man! Its terrifying to think of the things that could happen. But mostly, its humbling. Here I am going through my day to day motions, while a tiny human is becoming a parallel version of Justin and I, and on most days I don’t give it a second thought. Today though, today I am thankful for the doors that closed in my life and for the windows that were left open.
-Thoughtful and Reflective. Lindsy
